regret

every time that i am in the car i start thinking about updating my blog; about events have occurred since my last post that i can update everyone on … i always seem to stumble upon something profound that relates to whatever i am currently going through (both good & bad). although by the time i get home i have forgotten my brilliant analogies and am once again left with a blank screen and no desire to write anything.

today i got to thinking about the recent year and all of the things that i have accomplished along with the things that I had wanted to accomplish. i keep coming back to one word regret. regret is defined as a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

i wonder if i have made the right choices in my life, if i am the person that I think i am or even the person that i know i should be. if i were to be honest i would say no .. i have not made all the right choices thus far in my life and i am not yet the person that i want to be. this is where the regret kicks in .. not saying something i should have .. making one choice when i knew another was better .. speaking in haste and hurting those i love .. believe me people i have done it all. at times my mistakes are tiny while at other times they are like an elephant in the room.

does regret do any good?

i have come to the conclusion of no. what happened happened and there is generally nothing that can be done to change that. i look back at what i might consider a regret and realize that i have learned a lot throughout my relatively short life. I have learned how to avoid becoming someone that i hate and know that i ultimately control my future.

that is not to say that i will never say anything in haste or do something that is wrong, because with time it will happen (in case you didn't know, i do have a bratty side). but i hope that as different events occur in my life that i can handle myself with dignity and pride and live with no regret in my life.